This year we have had our fair share of bad news, traumas and heart ache as a family and that really goes a long way to proving what is important and what isn't in life. We have had a very sad time having lost my Nan and my Aunty in May this year after very short battles with cancer, but should we be devastated they are gone, or should we be thankful that they were here?
Last week we had an issue with our kitchen ceiling, the flat above had a leak which has come through to us (only a small leak), no one lives there, no one to fix the leak, no one to help, Eureeka moment to call water board to turn off water, water board turned off wrong water etc etc a bit like a Carry On film. Today I was informed by a neighbour at 6.45am (whilst in the garden with the dog in my pjs with no bra on!!) that he had reversed into the side of my car, later investigation proves it needs a whole new back quarter and is some very expensive damage that has been caused, so he did the job good and proper! Now although these things aren't necessarily life threatening, they are a complete pain in the bum and inconvenient, but is it really the end of the World?
I can throw a good bitch fit, I can have major sense of humour failure and I can have diva strops to rival the best of them, but after these last few months is it worth it?
The ceiling is just a ceiling, the water is now turned off, although I can't get the ceiling fixed yet until someone moves in and the leak is fixed, it isn't getting any worse. It could have collapsed on someones head, it could've blown all the electrics to the flat or anything, so for that I am grateful, I am also thankful it is a slow leak and I am not living amongst rubble. As for the car, I know how sick the guy who reversed into it must have felt, how awful that he had to tell me that or to know it is going to cost him a fortune, but again, just a material thing, just a car. I am thankful he hit my car and not a pedestrian, grateful that it is my car that is dented and not my puppy, and hey when it gets fixed they will valet it, so it may be clean for a while!
So now I come to my Nanny and my Aunty Lyn. I am so gratfeul they were here, so thankful they were part of my family, so thankful for everything they did for me, for us, for everyone, so grateful we had as much time as we did, but although the smile is on my face I am still devastated beyond all recognition from losing them. Maybe one day I can turn even a small part of the loss into a positive? I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, I just can't find a positive or a good reason behind it, so until then I will keep smiling and keep looking for a silver lining to every cloud, with every disaster that lurches its way into my week!
I'll keep you posted
Sammy xx
